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I've spent the last year with a mouthful of mold and absolutely no idea how to talk about it. I had to live through it, make mistakes, learn things I never wanted to know, and find my way back to the surface before I could even begin to put it into words. ROTTEN is a painfully personal account of mold, motherhood, guilt, questionable decisions, and everything we couldn't see until our lives were torn apart. It's about what happens when mold gets into your home, your body, your head, and eventually the way you see yourself. The sleepless nights. The endless research. The thousand ways I found to blame myself for something I didn't even know was happening. And perhaps the most devastating question of all: how do you forgive yourself when you feel like you've failed to protect the people you love most? Somewhere between the demolition, the move, the medical appointments, the financial absurdity, and the mistakes, I started feeling pretty fucking rotten myself. I refuse to take an experience that completely upended my family's life and package it into another soft, sanitized wellness blog. This is where I finally find my voice. Where I give the devastating parts their own spotlight, dig into the science, question what I thought I knew, unpack the recovery, and embrace the dark humor behind the sheer audacity of microscopic organisms. I'm still figuring it out. But I've finally got something to say and a few things to share along the way.

This is information I'd rather have lived without, organized for your convenience.

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Handbook

I am not a doctor & this isn't medical advice.

This is a personal collection of resources, research and deeply unwanted discoveries.

RESOURCES

Four categories to help you get under the surface.

HANDBOOK CATEGORIES

01 OH, SHIT!

You found mold. Or maybe you have symptoms you can't explain. Let's try not to spiral.

02 HOME

Home sweet home. Until the walls start closing in and every corner holds a dirty secret.

03 HEALTH

The symptoms, the science, the testing, the questionable answers, and the research you never expected to do yourself.

04 HEADSPACE

The guilt, the grief, the financial damage, and the difficult work of finding your footing when your family needs you most.

PERSONAL NARRATIVES

Departures of Grief

I originally wrote "Departures of Grief" for the sellers of our new home, hoping they might understand the significance of what they were giving our family. But somewhere in the middle of what should have been an entirely celebratory moment, I found myself confronting the strange coexistence of gratitude and grief.

6 CHAPTERS of EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD

Chapter 1 & 2 are now available.

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Chapter 2: Don't Forget To Tell Him About Me

I revisit the loss of my father, an unsettling encounter with a medium, and the unexpected ways his memory began resurfacing through my son. What started as an uncomfortable confrontation with the past became a journey through childhood, guilt, and the things we inherit beyond possessions. Sometimes moving forward means finding our way back.

3 min read

Chapter 1: Microscopic Versions of Trauma

Grief doesn't always arrive as loss. Sometimes it lives quietly in the body, waiting for something to bring it to the surface. In Chapter 1, Microscopic Versions of Grief, I reflect on motherhood, childhood trauma, and the discovery of toxic mold in our family home. What began as a fight to reclaim our health became an unexpected reckoning with guilt, safety, memory, and the invisible threads connecting our past to our present.

2 min read

SUPPLEMENTS & PRODUCTS

Supporting Your Recovery Ain't Cheap

From mold remediation supplies and air purifiers to nutritional supplements, water filters, and “low-tox” household swaps, I've compiled a master list of the products we purchased throughout our family's mold recovery journey. Fair warning: this is a painfully expensive collection of product research, documenting what we bought and exactly why we chose it.